Dyslexia of the mind…or something

Sometimes I feel like there are a lot more things that are wrong with me than I know about. I have such a hard time explaining things and just talking in general. People think that I’m just quiet because I’m shy. But even when I’m with people that I’ve known for years, there are times where I hold my thoughts in because I don’t know how to get them out. It must be genetic because my dad has the same problem. He’s even gotten help before with his speech and communicating with people, and I wonder if I should do the same. I’m so much better with written words than spoken ones because at least I get a chance to think about what I’m gonna say before I type/write it. If someone asks me a question in person, I’m all caught off-guard and it takes me a while to come up with an answer, and sometimes I’ll even ask them to repeat the question which probably makes me look like an idiot. This is why I hate “socializing” so much and I always tend to listen instead of being involved in a conversation. This sort of thing really interferes with my life and even my relationships because…what can you do when you don’t know how to communicate?